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Last Goodbye

17 Wednesday Oct 2018

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This is my second painting in the Ecclesiastes 3 series, to everything there is a season. I have been a portrait artist for years and love the human expression. Driven by a desire to push myself past faces, I started thinking about doing a series of paintings on hands. Then I thought maybe hands and feet, and I came to the conclusion that I just wanted to be able to paint expressive emotion without the aid of facial expression. So I had all these possible ides running around in my head, day and night. especially at night. I tend to do all my best thinking just before I go off to sleep. After the process of painting “A Time to Mourn” the series was set in my mind. But this painting was of the full body and was a dancer. So then I’m asking myself questions like, if this one is of a dance, does the whole series need to be represented in dance? Do I use the whole body in all the paintings: Or can I still go with just hands, or hands and feet? So many conflicting ideas overwhelmed my thoughts. Then the answer came to me.

In December of last year when my sister was passing away,  I sat in the room with her holding her hand, as she was taking, what I knew were some of, her last breaths, I looked down at my hands holding and caressing hers. The artist in me wanted to capture this moment forever with a photo of our hands touching for the last time this side of heaven.The rational side of me, how ever, talked me out of it saying that it would be crass and insensitive of me. For several months afterword I mourned that decision, as my sister and I were so very close and her hands and my hands worked along side each other so many times. She was like an extension of me and I of her.

One day as I sat visiting a friend who had just recently lost a dear life long friend, she was expressing her feelings as she and another friend sat saying their last goodbyes to their failing friend. She looked at me and said, I have something I want you to see. She then opened photos on her phone and showed me this beautiful photo of the three friends holding hands. She expressed to me how she had apprehensions about taking the photo, and had almost talked herself out of it, but her other friend encouraged her to go ahead and take it. As I looked down on this photo, I was taken back to that precious unforgettable moment with my beloved sister. I instantly asked permission to paint this photo, and was graciously granted permission, with my friend saying, “Maybe it was meant to be shown to you!” And I think she was right.43672923_560139704412003_7099662553256558592_n

So I started with a sketch up. I changed the angle of the hand on the left as I felt it was leading the eye off the page coming in directly from the left. instead I angled it from the bottom left corner to lead the eye in to exactly where I wanted it to land. I also enlarged the drawing to fit the size of canvas I wanted to use. I did a little shading with my pencil to give myself indications of shape and values needed. I then started by blocking in the sheets and hand furthest underneath it all, working myself to the top hand.

working in acrylics has always given me a challenge full of frustration. It dries so quickly and just doesn’t give me the time I need the for subtle blending needed to paint skin the way I would like. I admit I am a blend-o-maniac! There I said it! Another frustration that was getting the better of me was that acrylics tend to dry darker then the wet paint. sometimes 2 or 3 shades darker. Usually I would be able to press on through and get it done anyway, but this year has been rough when it comes to how much patience and to be honest how much energy and even desire to paint. So any frustration at all will shut me down in minutes. So again progress on this painting stopped for about a month.

 

I know it’s normal, as I am grieving, to be frustrated and lose focus easily, but it is also very stressful. I have the creative ideas constantly flooding my mind and I need to be able to express them or I kinds get a little crazy. It’s like therapy to me to paint through my pain and emotions. Anyway, I started entertaining the thought of trying to paint with oils again. I had stopped because the fumes would trigger my migraines, and nobody can be creative with a migraine, right? So i did a bunch of research and purchased oil paints with just pigment and oil, and got an odorless solvent which I use very sparingly. I was so blessed to find that they did not trigger migraines and the blend like butter. I am In love!

Once I started painting with the oils I felt like a bird set free from her cage. These paints are wonderful. I am in blend heaven. And I can paint for days with the same pile of paints before they dry up on me. This is going to take me a while to get used to as the canvas stays wet for days too. But this is both good and bad. Good because I can continue to blend and get those subtle blends I want, but bad because I can still blend and get those blends I don’t want! LOL!

Back to the painting itself. In the photo my friend is wearing a silver bracelet that she wears all the time as it is very special to her. I really wanted to get that bracelet into the painting. But as I started blocking it in I realized that my eye was being constantly drawn to the bracelet more then to the hands clasping, where I wanted the attention to be. So I made the hard decision for the sake of the composition to remove it.

Once that decision was executed and the arm was finished being painted, I went over my darks with a couple layers of glaze to deepen the wrinkle, in the hands as well as the sheets. added a few age spots, and glazed in some red to the arthritic joins in the main hand. Showing the painting to my friend who took the photo she says “I love the painting but it makes me cry every time I see it.” This is the highest complement ever! and I have to agree, it makes me cry too from my own precious Last goodbye with my sister. But it’s not the ugly cry that it used to be, it is the cry of being blessed by a women I will never fully let go of!

 

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14″x18″ oils on canvas

 

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Grey in Gray

30 Thursday Mar 2017

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I have been absolutely slammed with wedding prep for my youngest son’s up coming marriage since returning from Florida to witness the birth of my eldest son’s first baby. Since I was there during the photo shoot (which included this amazing photo) I was quick to ask the photographer for permission to paint any of the photos she was about to take. With delight I was glad to hear her say “I was hoping you would ask that! Yes!”

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Even as I sat on the sofa in my son’s home looking at the photos that the baby’s aunt Naomi took, I have been anticipating painting this photo. My son’s mother in law even offered to get me some art supplies so I could get started. But I chose to put aside my painting and just hold the baby for as long as I was able, before I had to head home to Oregon. SO even though I am slammed with wedding prep, I still snuck in a few hours here and there to paint this piece entitled Grey in Gray.

My students had asked me if I would teach a class on values once I returned home. So I thought what would be more appropriate then a gray values painting of baby Grey. (Even though I would have painting him for any excuse and will be for a long time I’m sure.)

So like always I started by taking my photo into photoshop and turning it into a black and white. Then I had a nice 8 x 10 glossy printed up and printed out a b&w photo copy as well.

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Using my values chart on the photo I then use the photo copy to write the corresponding value on the areas I had just checked. I did this twice as the photo was dark then I wanted the painting to be. The colored photo looked light and fresh but once I transferred it to b&w it was a little darker and I wanted a lighter feeling to the painting. So once all my basic values were charted I stepped them up 2 or 3 values and re-wrote out the corrected numbers on another photo copy.

To avoid any mistakes I then threw away the first photo copy with the original numbers on it. I did not want to take the chance of picking up the wrong copy and getting the values all mixed up on the painting. So then I blocked in the basic values on the different areas of the painting.

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Being that this was a painting of a very soft baby, I wanted the canvas to be very soft as well without a lot of grain to the canvas left. So I primed it again with a layer of gray gesso before beginning the actual painting, then sanded it smooth. This was one of the smoothest paintings I have ever done. I really like having a smooth canvas and it gave the affect I wanted it to have. I did find myself painting and then taking a dry brush and dabbing at it to smooth out and blend colors. I really haven’t done that much before but it gave the skin a very natural soft texture that looks and feels very much like baby skin.

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Once I got all the areas of the painting blocked in, I let the painting dry for a couple of days. Then when I was able to squeeze in a little more time on him I started to put more detail and more subtle value changes in. This was so much fun as I saw with every stroke that my grandson’s face was taking shape. My daughter in Law’s face came together just as quickly and beautifuly. I love this part of the painting as you really do start getting a 3 D affect as you put in more and more values.

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So again, it was time to let the painting rest and dry.

NOTE: I used Golden Open white titanium paint for this painting and mixed it with the regular Golden brand acrylic paint. Acrylic paints dry very fast, but the new Golden OPEN paint will keep the dry time open for a much longer time, giving me the time I need to blend subtle value changes! Which I love.

But unfortunately, this paint reactivates up to and past 3 weeks. Which means that this morning when I went to put on the finishing touches like adding final highlights, instead of adding, it actually lifted the dry color off, creating and very blotchy look, Which I, well, lets put it this way “Hate is a strong word, but I really really , really don’t like you! ” I can’t help myself!  I burst into song lyrics at random points all the time. LOL! i would always rather laugh then cry and that was my option now. So I decided to sing!

So to fix this paint problem, I had to spray the painting with a clear spray varnish to seal off the underpainting, so that nothing would move once I started to put on the highlights and hair details. This worked great. I hope you like it! 😀

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Zebra Hearts

15 Wednesday Feb 2017

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It’s valentines week! So I decided you post a blog featuring my most recent piece titled Zebra Hearts. This piece was done on scratch board and the painting with water color to give a little more detention.

This was a really fun project! I felt like a little kid again. I remember making our own scratch boards in 5th grade art class. This Scratch Board is a piece of masonite with a special ceramic coating and then a black ink scratch layer.

I started by tracing my sketch onto the solid black board with a white tracing paper. Since it was stripes I actually filled in the spaces with scribbled white so that I could keep the black and white stripes separated. It may not seem like it bout working with black and white stripes can get very confusing at times. This is the first scratch board I have done since 5th grade but I guess it is like riding a bike, because I never really forgot. I started by taking my x-acto knife and making hair like scratches on the surface of the white marked areas. I made sure to go in the direction of the hairs in my reference photo that I was granted permission to use by Photographer Sheilah Swanson who works at Wild Life Safari in Winston Oregon.

I made sure to make very light and fine lines in the areas where I wanted it to be lighter but not white. the zebra’s muzzle is one of those places. Hear I did directional scratches and some cross hatching.muzzle

The ears had longer hairs in them, and so I simply made longer intentional scratches so that the hair would look natural and lot like fence posts.ear

Adding a reflection in the eye was a little tricky as I really didn’t want a high light just a little bit of a haze to show the reflection of the sky. here again I did very fine scratches and cross hatching.eyes

When I had everything scratched in place I slowly used the flat of the x-acto knife and scraped the back ground away. I think it leaves a cool natural looking background. once that back ground was established I used water color paints to the white surface to give detention. I wasn’t sure it would accept the paint but it soaked right in and wouldn’t life out. so if you do this, build up your colors slowly as you wouldn’t get a second chance to lighten it  back up. Once the paint was dry, which was with in minutes, I scratched out the very white white highlights. As for signing it, well I simply scratched that isn too!signature

Final result is as 8″x 10″ Piece titled “Zebra Love” ready for framing. $250.00.

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Dream Dancer

31 Tuesday Jan 2017

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leap-of-faith-8 So you might remember my Leap of Faith painting from about a month ago. This one I did for my Granddaughter who was the subject of the reference photo I used. i really liked the way that painting turned out so I wanted to try it on a larger scale. So I pulled out a 4ft by 2.5ft canvas I have had laying around and started to sketch out the leaper in a larger format to fit the scale of the new canvas.

I wanted this piece to be mostly a knife painting so I added a texture paste medium to my paints so the knife strokes would hold their shape as they dried. Being that the canvas is very large it did take me the whole jar of medium! Wow! But I was very please with how the background turned out.

I had drawn the figure on the canvas before starting and did a base coat of a watered down burnt sienna just to take away the scariness of a blank white canvas. But as I was laying the thick background color paint on the canvas  I kind of lost the edges of the figure so I just decided to cover the whole canvas with background then redraw the subject later.

Once I had the background knifed in I started to rethink the whole waiting till it dried to draw in subject. After all if I wait then the subject will have weird texture in strange places making it not read right. So While it was still tacky I placed the drawing of the dancer on top and intended to just use the indent of the pencil edge to make a trace line, not using any carbon paper as to leave a dark mark. I actually thought that i=this would just leave and slight indent in the paint giving me enough information as to where to place the subject. But when I pulled the paper off the outline of the subject came with it leaving a rough edge.0118171501

This is one of those things that Bob Ross would call a happy accident. I loved the roughness of the edge! In fact I considered leaving the painting as it was, but quickly changed my mind as I still wanted to work more on her. so I scraped out the inside of the outline so that I could start painting the gymnast.

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Here you can see the rough edges around the subject. I think it adds interest to the piece. Anyway as I finished up with the skin tones I realized that this was not a gymnast but a dancer. I’m the artist I can make these kind of decisions! LOL! She needed a pretty flowing dress and some point shoes. What do you think?

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So I started painting her dress. I liked the blue from the background as there was just a touch of it. So I lightened it and made a pretty pastel chiffon dress. This I did totally with the edge of the paint knife and lots of paint. I was very pleased with how it turned out0120171925a

But the next morning I was rethinking it. Though I still loved the dress it just didn’t make the dancer pop! I mean I loved the skin tones and how rich it felt, but the dress kinda made her look, well unfinished, flat, she just didn’t make the statement I wanted her to make.

So I took the photo of her into photo shop and did a quick dress color change on her. Now I am not skilled in photo shop at all and there was probably a much better way of doing it then what I did , but this worked. So I pulled colors from the background and laid in the color into the dress.

After showing these choices to a couple of artist friends of mine I decided on the dark blue dress. I just felt if gave the feeling I wanted and the pop that it needed. My daughter even suggested that I could put some sparkle stars in her dress echoing the galaxy feel from around her. SO I did. And Here she is finished.

Dream Dancer

31″ x 47″ x 1″

Acrylic on Gallery wrapped canvas

$1,000.00

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Once I get a good photo of her so prints I will finish her with a couple of layers of gloss varnish. This is also My first piece with my new signature that you will be seeing on all my works from this point out.!

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Leap Of Faith

04 Wednesday Jan 2017

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Every artist hits dry spells. Well I had a year full of dry! It seemed every piece I worked on this year was not what I would call a success. I had started to teach an art classes at our local art shop in my home town two years ago. Dealing with students questions, I became convinced that I needed to learn to do everything my students had questions about. So I started trying everything: landscapes, still life, oils, pastels, Color mixing, and learn to paint in blues, yellows and pinks… These are all good things, but I have no passion for them.

I love doing portraits. Whether it’s people or animals, I love portraiture. Even when I paint landscape, it is more a portrait of a tree, not every tree in the forest. My mind wants to single out the subject and make it the complete focus. I was trying to fight myself because I felt that “Real Artists” see the whole picture and should be able to paint anything in any colors, any time, any where. But I have found out during this year of trial and error that all it seamed to do was steal my joy of painting and drawing. I am very stubborn and sometimes not the sharpest knife in the drawer. So it took me a year to get this revelation! LOL!

Once I finally realized what I was doing, I decided to just paint for the joy of it and paint what intrigues and fascinates me. Something amazing happened. I started to enjoy the process again. It took a while to get back in the swing of things again. Paintings didn’t just start coming out perfect all of the sudden, I still had to fight a years worth of what I saw as failures. Each had built upon the others leading me to the conclusion that I was not a “REAL Artist”. It was a epic mental battle that I had to press through with God’s help.

The Revelation and Healing

December 2016 came and with it the realization that it had been a whole year since I had turned out a completed art piece that I loved. One day after failing yet again trying to do something that I SHOULD do. I threw up my hands and asked myself “what I was doing?” and “Why” did I feel I needed to know how to do everything, Why? I was fed up, frustrated and just down right angry with myself for being so arrogant that I thought I could not teach or be an artist until I  knew everything there was to know about it.

So I said “NO MORE!” and I walked over to my reference photos of things I really wanted to paint some day. As I looked through them I found a photo Of my granddaughter doing a Gymnastics leap. I could hear her precious voice in my ear as she had said to me months ago, “I would love it if you would paint a picture of me doing gymnastics, Granny!”

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So it was settled. I knew I was not up to getting a perfect likeness of her at this point, so I decided to do a gesture painting. Again not something I have done before, but it is something I have always WANTED to try. So I started laying out a background.

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This was so much fun, but again I was fighting my nature. I love to refine, blend and smooth things out, yet with gesture painting you want to leave deliberate brush strokes with minimal detail. When I reached this point I stopped. I wasn’t sure I liked what I saw, though I had done what I set out to do. Needing some feed back I posted this photo On my facebook page and walked away from my studio for a couple of hours.

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When I came back with a fresh set of eyes and less critical, I saw that I really did liked her. I saw just a few things I needed to add or fix to complete her; and set forth to complete the work. When I went to post the completed work photo I saw that I had gotten a great supportive response that I was not expecting.

“I really like idea of using the more abstract style to give the feeling of movement. It also gives me the feeling that the dancer herself is leaping in a focused, trusting strength(which is great that you call it “Leap of Faith). I love the colors for the background and that whatever the dancer is leaping into is not clear to see, which gives me the feeling that the dancer is unconcerned about what is around her. Very beautiful.” Katie M

I was so encouraged and blessed by so many of my friends. Finishing up I had such a sense of relief, joy and excitement. The thought came to my mind “I am Back! I haven’t lost it after all! Thank You God!”

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I was still a little reluctant to show it to my granddaughter. For fear that she wouldn’t like it because it was abstract, and partly because I was afraid she would like it and want it, and I would have to part with it. I know, crazy maker stuff. Am I the only one that does this to my self? I think not! When I made the big reveal, she was just giddy! She loved it and gave me a hug enthusiastic hug! If that doesn’t boost ones confidence nothing would.

 Food For Thought

I guess what I wanted to share with you is that whether you are an artist or not, sometimes you go through a time of doubting your abilities and gifts. You may go through a time of really stinking at everything you try to do.

Let me encourage you that in trying you are learning. In failing, you are learning what not to do. You can’t fail if you don’t try, and not trying really stinks too. I have learned that I am human and fallible. Not a huge revelation! I had feared that failing in front of my student would cause them to doubt my ability to instruct them, but in fact they told me that it was actually an encouragement to them. Because if their instructor could try new things and fail then it was alright for them to try and fail in front of others.

I also learned something that simply amazed me. As I was struggling with the nagging thought that I was not a “REAL ARTIST” I kept hearing other artist say the same thing. Even artists that I look up to as my mentors were saying things like, “Well, so and so is a Real Artist” or “If I was a Real Artist.”…

LIGHT BULB!

We all feel inadequate. All feel like posers. We are all comparing ourselves to others and thinking if only I could be like, paint like, cook like, write like… that person, then I would be a REAL artist, Chef, Author… Insert what ever it is you are trying to be REAL at here.

It’s REALLY quite ridiculous if you step back from it and look at it for what it is! I love art, I love to paint and draw. I do it all the time. I can’t NOT be an artist. Even when I am no good at it, my heart struggles and is compelled to keep doing it. It’s like trying not to breath. Eventually you have to do it even if you are under water. I am an artist! Inside out or upside-down it is who I am, not what I am.

If you are going through a dry spell, take courage that it is a learning process and this too shall pass. Do not doubt that you are REAL. God knows who you are!

Psalm 139 (Biblegateway.com)

13 For you (God) created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.

 

I hope this encourages you to go on trying new things, stretching yourself and even failing. But also remember that God has made you to be one of a kind. You don’t have to be another Michelangelo or Monet. Just be the best you that you can be. Paint what God has placed in your heart to paint. Don’t do it for fame or fortune, do it for the love of it.